Saturday, March 8, 2014

7 Months

Hey boo,

How's it going?

So, I was just looking at the calendar and realized that 2 days ago, it was the 7-month mark.

How is it that time is flying and crawling at the same time?

I never know what day it is anymore.  I am just so scatterbrained.

I still can't believe you are gone.  Is this real life?

I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

Love.

Potty Training

Hey Boo,

How's it going?

So... potty training... yeah...

Can I just say, how the frick am I supposed to potty train 2 kids at once?!?!

The girls are totally ready for it.  But I'm not. Even though it will save us money on diapers and it probably would be easier than changing diapers all the time, I have absolutely no desire to potty train the girls.  It just sounds exhausting to me.

They go on the potty all the time at school.  I feel like there are many days where they go every single time they are put on the potty.  They still go in their diapers, but I'm pretty sure that's a good sign that they are ready for it.

And at home, they ask me to go on the potty.  Violet usually asks to go when she has to go poo-poo.  She's gone #2 on the potty twice for me in the last couple months.  And even if she doesn't go #2, she usually does #1.

And it's so hard, because sometimes they want to go potty on the potty, and it's like, Really? We're in the middle of eating dinner... ugh... Or, Really?  We are trying to get out the door in the morning before work/school, and it takes like 20 minutes to do the whole potty thing with 2 kids (taking the pants/diaper off, sitting on the potty, waiting for them to go or not go, wiping, putting diaper and pants back on, washing hands, cleaning up the potties)!  Seriously, ugh...

And I just want to tell them to wait, or just go in their diaper.  And I have done that before.  And I know that it is probably horrible, and totally counteractive, and now that will just make them so confused when I really start to potty train them...

Ugh...

Also, it is so hard to celebrate and be like "Yay for going on the potty!" when there are 2 little toddlers running around with no pants on in our teeny tiny bathroom, with 2 little potties that they are trying move after there is already pee-pee in them.  And if brother is crying in the kitchen, it's even worse!  It's basically just mad chaos, and I have no idea what to do.  I feel like I'm yelling at them more than celebrating.  "No, don't touch the pee-pee."  "No don't pick up the potty."  "Just stay sitting down and I will put your pants on when I'm done putting sister's pants on."  "Just sit down, because now I have to wash sister's hands.  It's almost your turn to get cleaned up."

Seriously, I. DO. NOT. KNOW. WHAT. I'M. DOING.

However, I can see that there might be some advantage to training 2 at once.  Because the girls love to copy each other.  So if one goes, then the other goes...

But that's probably the only positive in this whole situation...

I feel like I always hear that you shouldn't potty train your kids when a big change is coming up, or around the time of a stressful event.  Well, I feel like a PARENT shouldn't potty train while experiencing a traumatic event!

So anyways, that's the latest... I have no idea what my plan is with that whole thing.  But it's just another thing that I stress out about.

K, that's it.  Hearts.


Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Genius Alert

Hey boo,

How's it going?

So, I ran to Target during lunch today, because I like going places during lunch to break up my day...

While I was there, I definitely spent a good minute or 2, digging through my purse looking for my car key...

...Only to realize that it was in my hand.

Yup, genius alert!

Just thought I'd share that you married the smartest woman ever!

Hearts!

Monday, March 3, 2014

A Day in the Life...

Hey boo,

How's it going?

So, ya know how I always said that I wish we were on a reality TV show, because then there would be cameras around, capturing EVERY SINGLE moment of our lives?  But for some reason it seems like the only time I ever whip out my camera or video camera is when the kids are doing something super cool, or we are doing something fun?  Well, I'm trying to whip it out when we are doing the absolute most mundane things ever.  Because I want EVERY MOMENT captured.  "Cool" or not.

Like a typical day when we are just eating breakfast.

Or just random playtime, when nothing special is going on, nobody is doing any "new tricks."  Just playing with toys.

Because like this quote says, someday those mundane things are going to be the true special moments.  Actually, those things are pretty darn special right now.  Just having this "ordinary" time with the kids. But I want to REMEMBER them.

Not sure of original source, found in Google Image search.


Despite videoing "normal" times, I still can't capture EVERYTHING.  I try to take a "mental snapshot" of certain moments and burn that image, or sound, or moment into my head.

Like a few weeks ago when the winter Olympics were on... I had the TV on and ice skating was showing.  Charlotte pointed to it and said "Spin around!"  And I said "Yup, she is spinning around."  And in my head I thought, 'Oh my word, what if someday Charlotte grows up to be an ice skater?  This would be the first time she was ever exposed to it!  I have to remember it, just in case!"  I know, it's silly!  But there was a commercial (I think it was P&G) that showed moms helping out there kids since they were tiny, as they worked at their sport to become Olympians.

What if our kids become Olympians someday?

The girls are also singing a lot more.  "Baa baa black sheep baa wool!" is one of their current faves.  What if someday they are Broadway singers?!?!? "Remember remember remember their early days of singing," I tell myself.

And Will has a little teeny tiny basketball hoop.  He'll "slam dunk" the ball and then look at me.  What if someday he's in a basketball game and "dunks" it, and then turns to look at me in the crowd.  Jiminy Christmas, it makes me tear up just thinking about it!  But I want to remember his FIRST dunk forever!

Obviously, I have high hopes for our kids.  What parent doesn't?  Even if they end up being something "boring," like an accountant, I will remember their early days of counting. "Two, three, two, five, six, seven, eight..."  For some reason, they always skip 4, and they never start at one.  But Violet made it up to 13 the other day, and Charlotte's gone up to eleven.  We count the steps as we go up the stairs.  We count their goldfish crackers, or their pieces of sausage.  We count a lot of stuff.  So if they are accountants, I'll tell them all about it someday.

Remember. Remember. Remember.

Like I said before, it's all about the little things...

Anyways, here's one of our "mundane" videos of playtime.  Just another day in the life...



Hearts!

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Fluent Sarah

Hey boo,

How's it going?

So, I can't remember if I wrote you about this already, but every since you died, my vocabulary has changed.

I would say that you spoke fluent "Sarah."  As in, I had my own language, and you totally understood it.  And you even joined in on some of it.  Maybe the language actually became "SarahChaz" because we were the only ones who could speak and understand it...

But now, I can't talk the same way I used to, because nobody would get it.

Who would understand if I said "There's a package on the dock."?  Nobody.  Now I just have to say, "There's a package by the front door."

But a little bit of our language is starting to slip back in every once in a while...

Last week, I called Will a "sicky moo."  Pretty much "moo" could follow anything in relation to the kids, because they are my "little moos."  :-)  I hadn't said "moo" with anything in almost 7 months...  It felt weird to say it again!

Then there are things that I didn't even notice that I still say, but the girls have said it to me, and it makes me laugh!

Violet has started describing things as "funny."  For example, twice this weekend she said "My pants are funny."  They were being too long, so she was stepping on them and needed me to roll them up.

I used to describe everything as "funny."  It was basically a universal term to say that whatever object I referred to was not in it's typical/preferred form.  Any time I would say something was "funny", you would go "Ha!" :-)  You were hilarious like that.

It was pretty hilarious hearing Violet say it.

So maybe I will pass on a little bit of our language to them.  And we'll probably keep adding to it too...

Missing you like whoa.

Hearts.


Saturday, March 1, 2014

Mommy-Daddy Date Days

Hey boo,

How's it going?

I forgot that I wanted to tell you my idea so I don't forget...

So, remember how we used to have Mommy-Daddy Date Days, where we would send the kids to school, but take a vacation day from work. That way we didn't have to worry about getting a sitter, but still get time with just us, away from the kids.

Anyways, I NEVER get one-on-one time with any of the kids.  And that's not fair to them.  I feel like I'm always telling someone to "hang on" or "wait a minute" because I'm changing someone else's diaper, or comforting someone because they got hurt, or who knows what else.

It's not fair to me either.  I love our babies and I want focused time with each one.  I hate always being scatterbrained and rushed, and my attention divided in 3 different directions... I feel like I'm missing out on these precious days of baby-hood and toddler-hood.

So, I decided I'm going to do some Mommy-Kid Date Days this spring.

Hopefully by the time May roles around, I'll still have enough vacation time left...  But I'll take a whole week off (so 3 days), and each day I will keep one kid OUT of daycare, but still send the other 2 TO daycare.  And then I will have 1 whole day focused on that baby!

Sounds like a good plan, right?

My only concern is the girls.  They NEVER have time apart.  I think it might be a freak-out situation when I leave one at daycare and bring the other one home with me...  I'll have to think about the logistics of that whole thing soon.

I figured I'd do it in May when it's warmer out, because then we could do something fun.  Our kick-ass neighbors got our family a zoo membership for Christmas.  So I was thinking I could bring each kid to the zoo, since we can go as often as we want.  I might get sick of the zoo, but I think the kids will love it.  And I'd hope they like spending time with me too!

So yeah, remind me that I'm going to do this.  And I need to figure out how many vacation days I have left!

Ok, hearts!

Bad for Me Food

Hey Boo,

How's it going?  I'm exhausted.

Sometimes I miss the stupidest things about you.  Remember when you would call on your way home from work and ask "What's for dinner?"  And I would say "Nothing, pick something up."  And you would ask, "What do you want?"  And I would say "Bad for me food and a keg of Diet Coke."

And you would know just what to get.

I miss that.  I miss someone knowing me better than I know myself.  I miss you.

Hearts.